Wednesday, September 03, 2008

To Know or Not To Know

.....that is the question.
Well, it WAS anyway.  The answer has since been decided.  
Ever since we knew we were expecting again we had been undecided about whether or not to find out the sex of the baby.  The fact that we even considered not knowing was unusual for us but once we had one of each, I felt different about the issue.  It's funny to me how much our indecision allowed others to feel the liberty to express their thoughts on the matter.  You would never say to someone who knew what they were having "oh, its way better not to find out!" but since I was questioning it, I heard it all the time.  I was hesitant to agree though.  Others I spoke with (it is often a topic of conversation with strangers because I work in a maternity store!) who had obviously known the sex of their children would often makes comments like "oh, you're so strong for waiting it out" or "I never had the strength to do that" as if it's some noble deed that requires extra determination and good will.  The funny thing is that even though I often told people I didn't plan to find out, the truth was I really wasn't sure what I was going to do.  I didn't feel like I had enough of a reason not to know (other than just to be able to say that I didn't).
So, as the day approached, Brian and I got to talking about it a little more seriously.  The great part about that is that we actually had time to talk at all, a rare occasion in this season of life! We were afforded some time to go on a date (thank you Jenny and Ryan!) for our anniversary (6 years!, phew!) and after discussing various reasons as to why we would or would not want to find out, we made our decision.  The thought of it was, at very first, offensive to me but overtime, I started to get more used to it. In the end, it was obviously right for us.
So............I do not know the gender of the baby I am carrying in my belly nor will I find out until he/she is born.  Brian, on the other hand, had a private viewing of the genitals this afternoon and DOES know the baby's sex.  I was able to watch his face as the mystery was unveiled to him which was rather neat.  His response gave me no hint and I trust he will continue to keep the secret well.  He will tell no one until the final announcement on the day of delivery. 
Once again, I would have liked to scan and post a picture of the little peanut for you to see but the process is still too time consuming for me to commit to right now.  I thought I'd pass on the google photos this time though.